Soul Eater

A few days ago I had a dream where I tried to have sex with a friend, Victoria, in an apartment that was my home but not this apartment. 

Next scene was something about soldiers akin to the ones in Avatar, with such machines you used like a larger body. There were some soldiers waiting in line at an edge and a string of such machines walking forth to be used. In the end some higher ranked military man said something about a mission which seemed like an assassination mission and he said they had one soldier available for the job but that he was not ready. I interpreted that soldier as being me.

This night I dreamed that I grabbed the tits of this young lady because I was horny and she didn't like it. She bit me pretty bad in the left hand. Later I tried to have sex with her. But we had our clothes on.

I was in Malmö and there was this group of immigrant teens. One tried to cast knives at me. It was close but they didn't hit. Later I think I started eating humans. There was also this structure of rooms going down into the ground and at some point I might have been free falling.

There was this science lady who said that the thyroid gland of people or people in Sweden was eaten up completely at the age of 17 from angst. I decided I wanted to eat a soul. There was this head of a middle aged blond woman, a bit fat, with a page haircut. I sucked up her soul. Visually this took the form of white steam going from her head into me. Then there was this huge old male head and I decided to try to eat his soul too but was a bit afraid of him. I woke up and was a bit scared at how low I had fallen and of what I might have become, eating souls. It was in the middle of the night and I went to the toilet, I was a bit scared to look at my shadow, as if I would see something there.

I did recently see Doctor Sleep as for the soul eating part and some week ago I thought a cannibal had locked in on me. Also I told one of the home support guys, Fredrik I think his name is, that I felt like I wanted to eat his clothes. They looked like various foodstuffs. His shirt had the color of raspberry sorbet.

I remember an early memory when I was at kindergarten and looked in a book. I felt like I wanted to eat the colors, because they reminded me of various tastes and foodstuffs.

There might actually be a cannibal in the area since one was locked up here like 20 years ago in forensic psychiatric care, for having killed and eaten his girlfriend. I saw this long haired, bearded man two times when going to town by bike, he had clothes almost like a homeless man. It was like he locked on to me. This is the guy I thought planned to eat me. I even thought he was sitting outside of my home, watching me.

Then some days later those thought disappeared but another thought hit me. That I might be part Praying Mantis. I had this thought pretty strong and felt like one too. Though another thought was that there was one controlling me. According to some author they use telepathic mind control to steer their victims, the extra-terrestrial advanced evolved species of Praying Mantis. I have seen a movie on Youtube where one of the earthen insect ones pray on a lizard. It is very fast and merciless and it looks like it uses some form of telepathic mind control, but it could be poison too. The lizard suddenly has a huge bit of his flesh taken/ripped out and is probably so shocked that he doesn't think of fleeing.